no bc it’s like… you’re a woman in corporate america. you’re a woman in corporate america and you’re pregnant and no one has ever been on your side. your husband doesn’t trust you, your brothers don’t trust you, your father is dead, your mother is an absence. you’re a woman in corporate america and you’re pregnant and your husband who knows this is calling you unhinged in a room full of men. your brother is coming to you and telling you he is a bad person. you tell him he’s not. your big brother is a good person but he’s not and neither are you. the poison drips through. your brother is trying to be your father but he’s not because you are. you hated your father. you loved him. no one will listen to what you have to say. no one is on your side. your brothers are self destructing. you are betraying them but you are still on their side. are you? your brother is yelling at your husband and you are in a room full of men and not one of them will look you in the eyes. you are the little sister, the only daughter, the outsider turned insider. you are a woman you are a woman you are a woman.
i want it to be real//the americans 2x10 ‘yousaf’ // the americans 2x09 ‘martial eagle’ // where does this tenderness come from?, marina tsvetaeva // the americans 1x07 ‘duty and honor’ // jackson browne, call it a loan // the americans 1x13 ‘the colonel’ // the americans 5x10 ‘darkroom’ // the americans 6x09 ‘jennings, elizabeth’ // luna adriana // the americans 1x01 ‘pilot’ // franz kafka, letters to milena // clarice lispector, agua viva // the americans 2x05 ‘the deal’
